Will I ever get Stronger?

Every morning when I wake up I feel that sting of heartache knowing that my baby girl is not home with me to cuddle, feed, take care of, and nurture. The only way that Mommy has found to help numb that sting a little is to get down on her knees and pray. When your Mommy prays she trys to remember all the many blessings she has to be grateful for and that always helps ease the pain of not having you here with me. I always ask for heavenly father to watch over you and take care of you in the ways I can't right now. I believe that through my faith of our heavenly father and all of the prayers that are being given go graciously by loved ones and friends your mommy, daddy, and you will be just fine! Today was one of those hard mornings. I decided i needed to go up to my class and say hi to them all because I have missed them like crazy and needed to see their smiling faces so that I could come up to see you with a big smiling face. The second I walked into my classroom and saw all 28 of my students my heart was full and I could not stop smiling! I was so happy to be there and did not want to leave. I got the best hugs ever and the kids were so joyful and happy it was contagious. Being away from those kids for three weeks has felt like an eternity. Being there today was just another reminder of how lucky I am to be a teacher and to have a job I truley love and enjoy. My students teach me as much as I teach them. Today they taught me the greatest lesson of all and it was to smile and be in the moment! I will carry that moment for the rest of the day. As I left the classrrom I was stopped by so many parents and co workers that wanted to see how I was and just give me a hug. WOW, I couldn't have asked for a better school of co workers and parents! They are all so good to me and are so amazing in so many ways! Just to know that all of my students are going to be taken care of while I am taking care of Jaycee is a huge releif and one less worry. So Jaycee, Mommy is going to smile, stay in the moment, and be thankful for all of her many blessings. You are definatly a blessing to your mommy and daddy! We will see you in a little bit up at the hospital! Love you !!